FROM THE FIELD

Dispatches from someone who learned the hard way.

• June 2, 2026

  I was Drunk on Ego

  THE HEROIN DRIP OF EGO · BETA VERSION I have never been drunk a day in my life. Never high. Never done a drug of any kind, ever. I’ve actually got this weird animosity toward the whole thing — somewhere deep in my guts I always figured that needing something to make you feel a […]

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• June 2, 2026

  Self-Forgiveness: Mistakes Don’t Define You

  CHAPTER THREE · BETA VERSION Most people want to skip this chapter. They think the hard work is in the discipline, the hustle, the rebuilding. It’s not. The hardest work is right here — in the quiet moment when you decide to stop being your own worst enemy. There’s a particular kind of torture that […]

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• May 29, 2026

  This Became My Church

  The tire weighed somewhere between 200 and 400 pounds. I never knew the actual number. It sat at the edge of the yard at Lompoc and most days nobody touched it. I would.

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• May 26, 2026

  Celebrity Failure & Redemption Stories

  CHAPTER TWO · BETA VERSION When you’re at the bottom, the last thing you need is someone telling you to believe in yourself. What you actually need is proof. Real proof. Real names. Real stories. Robert Downey Jr. was arrested so many times in the late 1990s that industry insiders had written him off permanently. […]

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• May 22, 2026

  1,500 Applications. Zero Interviews.

  CHAPTER TWO · BETA VERSION I sent out more than 1,500 job applications when I got home, many of which were well below my skill set and frankly part time & entry level. I landed zero interviews. Not one. The only call I got back across an entire year of trying was from some pest […]

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• May 19, 2026

  Going to Prison

  CHAPTER ONE · BETA VERSION There’s a moment — and you’ll know it when it comes — when you stop pretending. When the story you’ve been telling yourself collapses under the weight of what you’ve actually done. I went to prison. I’m not telling you that to shock you — I’m telling you because that […]

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