Some of the people reading this have been to prison. Actual prison. Where time — the most valuable and irreplaceable thing in the world — is taken from you.
Those folks, more than anybody, understand what time is worth. They have missed birthdays. Christmases. The moments that don’t come back. The pain of missing out sits heavy on them, and it never fully lifts.
But there is a much larger group out there. People in a prison of the mind.
No release date
Their body isn’t behind four walls. Their mind has been locked away for years.
Trapped in a cage of doubt, stress, and fear. And these people seem totally normal from the outside. A lot of them, I’ve noticed, live on routines and practices just to get through their day. They look like routines. They’re not. They’re mental prisons.
Those walls are far more damning than the real ones, because there is no date on the calendar. No release date. People serve these sentences their whole life.
How often is it that someone is trapped in a loveless marriage of convenience? Spending decades slightly numb as the routine of life weathers away the fire they once had?
Parents fall into this one easily
They shed their hopes, their dreams, their ambitions, and they call it a sacrifice for their children’s best interest.
They end up living lives of quiet desperation, as Thoreau put it, so that their kids can live a good life.
Here is the part nobody says out loud.
The child is watching.
The child is watching their parent become a hollow vessel. A shell of the person that once sat in front of them.
The world’s ugliest compound interest
Year after year, time slips away. Daily micro-sacrifices slowly build like the world’s ugliest compound interest.
This is a prison of sacrifice.
And it is noble. I want to be clear about that — the intention is good. But look at what it is actually teaching.
It teaches our children to give away our most valuable asset, time, by stopping chasing our ambitions.
Our lust for life, we disregard — in hopes that our children have happiness. The thing we just threw away.
Read that again. We are modeling the exact thing we don’t want for them.
What I’d rather they see
Wouldn’t our children be better served by watching their parents reach for their dreams — succeed or fail — but keep on living?
As opposed to quietly sacrificing everything until the highlight of our day is a Pumpkin Spice latte.
I’m not saying don’t provide. Provide. Show up. Do the unglamorous work that nobody claps for.
I’m saying don’t disappear while you do it.
The stick and the carrot
Everything I am writing is meant to shine a light on one possibility: that a person can stumble and still find redemption. Redemption professionally. Redemption socially. Redemption of the spirit.
But there is a flip side to that, and it’s the one that should actually move you.
The loss of not doing should be the stick to the carrot of life.
You can lose everything in one catastrophic mistake. I did. Or you can lose it a day at a time, quietly, for twenty years, and call it love.
One of those gets noticed.
The other one doesn’t.
Your kids will remember which one you chose.
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